I’m late. How unusual. But as with everything in life, my head wasn’t cooperating with the rest of me over the New Year section of the year, and having discovered a few months back that my diagnosis is, in fact, that I’m bipolar… let’s just say that the period around New Years saw me having a particularly ‘bipolar’ session.
New Year isn’t my favorite time of the year, something I might have mentioned in the past. This year – so much so – that I didn’t make any resolutions on New Year’s Eve, instead spending both New Year’s Eve and New Year’s Day in a funk. While so many people consider New Year’s Eve a time of celebration, a time to grab a couple of drinks and celebrate the forthcoming year as a time of optimism and new beginnings, I tend to be the ‘glass is half empty’ kinda gal.
New Year is when I consider the passing of one year and the possibilities for the next with the same, entirely pessimistic view. I berate myself over what I failed – and worry myself to death over what might happen in the following year. Kinda tragic, but there you are. And I don’t think I’m the only person on the planet to do this, but sometimes… sometimes I suspect I’m the only person in this particular boat.
Consequently, I didn’t make any resolutions last Thursday night. I’ve done all the obvious ones… given up smoking… worked on and successfully self-published some books… heck, this past year, I even found the courage to sign up with a publisher (which is proving to be the best decision I’ve ever made)… and set up a small editing business.
But I couldn’t think of anything ‘big enough’ or ‘important enough’ to consider as resolutions for 2016. And given the ‘bipolar funk’ I’m just now emerging from, I didn’t think I had anything which fit the bill.
Fast forward to the fourth of January… and I realize I do, in fact, have a couple of very important resolutions to be made for the upcoming year – things that will better my own situation, and hopefully, teach me something new about myself.
Consequently, here is my list. (Drumroll, Please.)
So there you are. Nothing particularly life-changing to the majority of the planet – but for me – three things which would make a huge difference to my own self-esteem and belief in myself. So I begin 2016 with the best of intentions, and we’ll see how it pans out in due course.
And to those who read my blog – I wish you the very best of luck in following through with your own resolutions in 2016.